Yoshiki's Picnic - 03

Part three - A Long Ago Memory

I really wonder when Gackt will get here... Though I really wish HYDE hadn't come. Gackt-san never really looks at me when he's around.. Yoshiki thought to himself.

"Oh, look who has decided to appear," Mana said quietly, narrowing his eyes.

Yoshiki whirled his head around to find Gackt, but found only Közi in his place. His face fell and he grumbled, then spilled his Bacardi onto his pants. Kuso he thought, I spilled Bacardi on my pants last week and it has never come out it. It is a permanent stain that I have on my pants now. This liquor perhaps is not what I thought it should be. It really is as material and fleeting as the rest of us, yet it can be so damaging as well. I wish I had worn my other pants, if I had known I where to spill something on my pants, I probably would have not worn these. I can scrub and scrub when I get home, but I will only think of Hide. I am only a useless human in a world full of animals. His thoughts fell to hide for the many time of that day as he watched the buses and many cars fly by, whizzing and buzzing and various other car noises could be heard. Sometimes I wish I would just end it.


And then he remembered. It was the first time he and hide had been alone together and he knew what he wanted. He believed that hide knew as well and could sense it. Touch me, he was thinking. Touch me, hide. Right here, where it feels so good.

"Ne, Yoshiki-kun! Are you listening to me!?" hide knocked on Yoshiki's skull and laughed. "Sometimes I think you're in a whole other dimention from me. How are we supposed to talk with you spacing off like that?? Are are, you should pay more attention, baka!"

"Gomen, hide-chan!! Ore wa...I was listening! I just got lost in thought for a moment there. Gomen, gomen!" Yoshiki clapped his hands together and waved them about, showing how apologetic he could be. His apologetic nature must have done a number on hide, who smiled and looked at the j-rock superstar fondly. Yoshiki became embarrassed.

"Neeeee, hide! Don't look at me so strongly. Your eyes are boring a hole in my soul and I don't know if I can take it. It's like you're a drill and you know just how fast you have to turn to get me to drive myself into the wall. Sometimes I wonder how you even do it. Sometimes I wonder how I...feel..."

"Oh, Yo-kun." hide whipstered, leaning over closer to Yoshiki and kissing him on his lips suddenly. Yoshiki gasped with surprise and pleasure and returned hide's surprising kiss. His mouth tasted and felt sweet like butter, and Yoshiki wanted to lick up ever greasy bit of it. Yoshiki couldn't believe what he was doing as he embraced hyde with a passionate, loving kiss. He felt happier than he could remember. His thoughts drifted to a professor he'd had in tokyo university where he got his pHD in Pre-Soviet Literature who told him that happiness was rare and wasn't always going to be around so when he found it he should grab it and show it who it belongs to. He smiled and thought of that professor dortlynne. He had given him so much good advice for life and knew he was right about so many things. His life wouldn't be the same anymore. He was going to be happier than he'd ever been and make happiness know whose bitch it was. He leaned back as hide kissed him more probingly and was sliding his hands around over his chest area and near his shoulders.

hide began to kiss around on his neck and Yoshiki thought that was very nice and moaned orally. "That's very nice, Hide," he stuttered through his mouth.

"Yosh...iki." He said between neck-kisses. "I think....I think I...I love you."

Yoshiki gasped and held hide close to his body. He tore at hide's clothes, popping bottons and cracking zippers. Clips, buckles, and bottons were flying everywhere, but Yoshiki didn't care. They're just clothes he screamed in his mind. What are clothes right now? Right now when I have hide so close to me. When he's telling me he loves me! These clothes mean nothing, they are only pathetic strips of cloth that keep me from my beautiful, amazing hide. He was violent now, positively ravenous for Hyde's body. He was now completely naked and Yoshiki stepped back and absorbed hide's beautiful body. His muscles were chiseled and yet he was so trim he could have been bulimarexic. He was beautiful. From the hair on his toes, to the ring in his nose. Totally beautiful.

That night was the most amazing night of Yoshiki's life. He would treasure that for the end of his days. However soon he might throw himself in front of a bus, that night would be with him until the end.

But so would that.

That other part of that memory.

Yoshiki winced. He hated to remember, but he could never forget.


"Mmmm, hide. That was amazing. I've never been so happy in my life," Yoshiki yawned, stretching his arms and looking beside him. But hide wasn't there. He wasn't beside him in bed.

Yoshiki chocked. He tried to force it out of him. Not that. I can't think about that. NO. I WON'T THINK OF THAT. NOT TODAY. Not...today.

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